020216 —I guess I’ll start dating these. That 65 days ago or what ever ago is pretty awkward.
Well, banned in all Debate Forums now, creeping, creeping… I’m still getting that this thread is still one of the more popular (I know even with the fudged numbers, my blog was) on curezone, and it’s been part of the reason for my not being banned previously, that I’ve gotten support I don’t know about because folks want me here. If so, thank you all. 🙂 And it’s why he’s doing it slowly.
And more on the energy attacks stuff. There was a underlying latent attack energy Zen sent as well. It was triggered by the word ‘wizard’ and that El-*th gal posting as david1o1 the next day or so was trying to get me to type it.
That’s what that whole bizarre thing about zooming around with energy coming out ‘his’ hands and feet was about. And finally I did type wizard late afternoon I think, and by bedtime that nite, all the symptoms were flared back up. I was starting to recognize them this time as attacks, not detoxing.
I’d noticed things going downhill throughout the afternoon but was thinking, no, it can’t be! I got rid of that energy already, and my shield should be blocking anything else.. But by nite, it was clear somehow it had started attacking me again.
So I did some muscle testing to figure out how. And stopped it. The next day I was telling my sweetie about it and how the word ‘wizard’ triggered it and it started attacking again, starting my throat hurting and everything to itching and bothering my lungs. I was like, what in heck??
By early evening this time I accepted what it was (in spite of my belief I’d gotten rid of it), and started figuring out why—it was the same latent energy again! I’d only stopped it, so when I said wizard again, it started back up. I hadn’t actually removed it. Blah. So this time I removed it, and it isn’t starting up anymore. So I had a nite of improving again and most of the next day.
Then, a little sore throat started again, and I immediately started asking if it was another attack (it was). How in heck was it getting thru my shield? After some more questions I figured out it was me touching the keyboard, they (actually Zen too) were piggybacking it on the internet connection but the actual ‘delivery’ method was running it up thru my fingers, from the key board.
Well, so then, was it the El-*th dragon haters again somehow (no). Was it someone from curezone? (yes) I started thinking who else could it be?? Was it from a human? (yes) Hum. The only humans aware enough to do this are probably the indigoes, and then that indigo guy who verbally attacked me (who’s attack I posted, and who’s rather embarrassed about it) popped into my head. I got that he was kinda more just testing if it would work, not to really try to hurt me. Reading about the El-*th attacks gave him the idea to try.
It wasn’t hard to block once I realized it was there, but my throat didn’t really improve, so I started asking, Am I still being attacked? (yes) It hit me–this had give a bunch of folks the idea to try. And at that moment, the one who remained was one of the tall skinny blue people. They hate my expose’ and ‘bad’ aka truthful description of them. They were running it like water thru the unsealed edges of my shield. Good grief–I was getting very frustrated by how many ways MY shield was failing me!
At that point, I’m kinda frustratedly said, Celeste, didn’t you say you’d strengthen my shield?? I’d really like it if you would amp it up some, with all these other potential attackers around.
She responded—I thought you’d never ask—here let me. I wouldn’t mention this, thinking you all deserve this, but Celeste said, no–it’s anti-sentient to promote suffering, so I’ll mention that 1) you’re not going to best an overarching sentience, so don’t give yourself a hernia trying, and 2) she’d bouncing your attack energy back on you x 5.
But anyway, Duh on my part. She’d offered but she never does anything unless you ask, because she doesn’t want to intrude on your free will and life lessons (especially if learning to ask is one of those lessons). If you ask, she can see if it will interfere and help if she can, but not if you don’t ask.
Well, I guess this was another great learning opportunity. Blah. But no energy has gotten thru since. I coughed once this morning with a healing tickle, my voice isn’t trashed, and the itching stuff is pretty well gone. Better than it has been since before the start of the real detoxing.
So, sorry, detractors. I’m sure you were delighted to know I was suffering, but the show’s over. Well, at least that show. *lol*
She telling me she zapped the curezone guy’s fence this am as he was brushing his teeth (out of a clear, blue sky). And to say, “Ok. Your ‘god’s’ turn”. And this is what an oracle does. Celeste can’t talk to him, but she can tell me what to say. I’d love to know what his dreams are like–she can communicate that way, albeit far less clearly.